25th July 2010, the day i welcomed my baby to the world. it was a unique experience for sure, one that incorporated all the emotions that i have ever felt in my whole life plus some more new ones.
It was a surreal moment when i saw HIM for the first time (Yes It's a BOY). something was triggered inside of me, much like a switch. i still cant describe that feeling .. i guess its motherhood :)

I cant believe how my life changed in one night, i now have to move armed with diapers, bottles and formula. and even tho i get the constant " you're so young to have a baby " .. i'm enjoying every second of it ... coz just the sight of his tiny teeny hand stretched out to hold my blouse when i'm feeding him is worth the whole wide world. not to mention his smile that sends my heart flying through the roof.

Soo .. now you know where i have been .. Motherhood is a full time job :)






I handled the first months of morning sickness

I was ok with the weird cravings

I made it through the unbearable back aches

I got used to stealing all the pillows in the house and stuffing them under my back

I bid farewell to my small tummy and welcomed the huge soccer ball

I made peace with the damn scales .. even though i'm in tears every time i step on them

I gave up on my daily shot of Caffiene

No more heals for me .. but that was fine

the Puffy face still scares me each morning when i wake up ..
and whats more, its still there when i go to sleep at night

BUT

Thats Normal, After all i'm Pregnant
I can take all of that

What I CANT take is

Exams WHILE i'm pregnant

I cant sit on a chair to study let alone sit for 2 straight hours for the exams
and its just perfect when Baby decides to play in the middle of my exam
so in addition to all the stress i'm in trying to remember what the hell i have studied
i have to put up with distraction of the kicks and rolls
and you dont wanna see me trying to reach the table over my soccer ball belly

1 more exam Curls, 1 more and you have the whole summer !



Thursday
3rd December 2009

4.12 am
I kept shifting and rolling in bed, i tried to sleep but i couldn't. something was weird, something was new. I had a million thoughts wandering around in my head. and i became suspicious.
i know i have gained a few Kgs in the past couple of weeks, but that's because i have a healthy appetite, that does not mean anything.
i placed my hands on my stomach, tried as best as i could to push those thoughts away, and then prepared to surrender... to my dreams.

10.31am
i woke up, got out of bed.
and as i was washing up... i thought why not!
i waited for a few mins .. aand it was a POSITIVE!!

and that was the beginning of a 9 months journey ... YES I'm pregnant.
that was on December, 5 months ago.

now I'm 6 months into my pregnancy ... a couple more and I'll have my baby with me.




burning eyes
throbbing headache
racing heart beats
anxiety
flight of ideas
distractibility

all are symptoms of Exams
I'll call it Pre-Exam syndrome
there's a lot more but i cant make myself write anymore
since i have an exam in 3 hours and a half

i just left my notes on my desk
i cant look at them any longer..
my head is killing me and i cant concentrate
i already swallowed Panadol
it seems the effects haven't kicked in yet

I'm really scared ..
well to be honest i don't recall the last time i got into the exam hall
and wasn't absolutely terrified.

have you ever cheated ??
3omerkom ketabtaw bershama ??
my mind always seems to freeze simply at the prospect of cheating
i tried once to snatch the answers from a friend
but i couldn't make myself do it
I'm just too scared
i simply cant take the risk of being exposed

you can call me a coward if you like !!

i have helped others to cheat from my paper though
in high school ..

anyway i guess i should go back to revising .. uuuhh
well at least writing this post helped a little with the headache

ed3ooly plz !!




Last night while me and my husband were having dinner:

Him: So whats with the girls and their statuses on Facebook ??

Me: Madry i havent been on facebook for ages .. laish sh9ayer ??

Him: well , all the girls have colours on as their statuses , Pink, blue, black .. you name a colour its there !!

Me: HuH ??!!! wait !

i get up and log in into my facebook account.

Turns out to be every girl is posting the colour of her BRA !!! What the HELL ??
you might ask why as i did...

because some stupid person started this whole campaign to raise Breast cancer awareness .. dnt ask me how will that happen ..

But seriously girls.. 3aib 3alaikom !!

shno ya3ny now every guy you have on facebook knows what colour is you bra ..
you do know inna ur bra is considered something private w its part of your underwear that no one should see ?? right ??

i kept imagining girls walking by w the guys thinking "Yep shes wearing Pink with sparkles !!"




My baby's birthday was a couple of days ago, He's older than me now and for the next 7 months he will be, until i catch up with him ;) he he he

Don't you agree that buying gifts for guys is sooooo HARD ?? i never know what to get him, and i can never get hints out of him coz basically he never really wants anything ?? and it gets really exhausting trying to find the perfect gift.

So this year i decided to go with many silly-small-presents.. and we had a good laugh at it.
but i had to get him something not silly .. 3ashan laman its my turn to get all the gifts i get something NICE if you know what i mean ;) so i got him a really NICE tie.

Oh and by the way he opened all his gifts weeks before his birthday .. coz HE didnt want to have a birthday " i dnt know whats so great about birthdays" he said ..

On his real birthday .. i couldnt go with nothing .. so i wrote him a bday card with a huge bunch of roses ... 7abeeeby it was the 1st time anyone has ever brought him flowers .. coz usually i'm the one whose getting those :P

and surprisingly he was really happy with the roses he even cut and arranged them himself, admiring his work every 2 mins.

so i guess Guys do like flowers after all.. or maybe just MY guy :P aaahh a new reason to fall in love with him even more .. coz that means even more flowers for me :D

BaBy i Love you MORE than Chocolate :)
w enjoy being older ;)